Sunday, September 16, 2007

Fragile and insignificant humans

Hell yeah, I was freaked out.
Hearing stories, seeing from TV of things going wrong; and seeing them in reality is two very different things. Never had I feel so powerless and insignificant in my life before. All those things like trying to succeed in class (being so-called rocket man because of getting A grade), being aggressive, trying to stay under control most of the time, and striving to climb to the top regardless of in the office place or elsewhere - all faded away in a second's time. Seeing someone close get sick really hurts, and as mentioned earlier... made me feel very powerless as well. Spending nearly 17hrs in the hospital was like time spent in eternity.
I had once again questioned myself why did I pursued engineering and not medicine before. Maybe I can help, maybe I can do more, maybe I can avoid this from happening were questions that rang in my head. Well, I do understand that there's no 100% curing medicine, nor are doctors godlike figures who can cure all sicknesses; but I do believe that they make a big difference, and I am truly grateful. I am also not a religious person neither, but believed that there's some higher power who guides insignificant little beings like us to a 'better path' ; and today I truly prayed with all my heart. And in turn, I am happy that I did. Thank you.
(Picture taken from Spanish trip).

5 comments:

bunnip said...

hey man, you ok? we must make the best of the worst situation... stay strong and supportive is all anyone can ask of you. There is no insignificant person. We all make a difference; big or small. And you, I can say it's big :P

Edmund Lee said...

Heya, thanks Cal...
And also friends who emailed me offline as well. Really appreciate the support...

AJEYA RAO said...

I think i missed something...Who is not keeping well?

I hope you find the strength to face the otherside of life. And I am confident that our faith in that supreme power, will help us at the difficult times.

Edmund Lee said...

Thanks Ajeya.
Appreciate the thought and wishes :)

yanming said...

nice picture:)